Almost there

This year has been incredible.

Incredible to look back - it has not even been a whole year yet!

First off, I have been training really hard with my personal trainer 

been in strict control with diets, weight-liftings, many cardio sessions...

I feel great and ready to conquer the world lol

I felt like I have completely embraced myself this year

my sexuality; (I'm close to embracing my height)

I'm more comfortable with myself, with people, 

with lots and lots of sex ... And I'm not even a sexual person.

Those are times when I crave physical touch and affection.

I'm starting to get a lot of attention on those apps... 

I'm such a late boomer!!!

ngl that boosts my confidence but I had to remind myself that my charm comes from within.

Academically

I felt like again I'm the only exception in my cohort.

This feeling and weird perspectives on things that I have since primary

when is it going away? or are they for good? Am I still the dark horse?

I have proven time and time again my perspective stands the challenge of time.

I AM once again different from the small cohort of 6.

I convinced 2 academic groups to venture into something that the whole university has no experience in.

I won my first fund; I convinced a supervisor to start a company

how did I do that? I still cannot give an answer. I'm not sure.

Socially

I made more friends than ever.

but I just wanna have fun

no more 'advice' from me

I'm done trying to convince people of my different perspectives

Because there are people who would believe they're in a non-salvageable puddle

not realising that I was in that puddle too

I believed that I'm different and seek any opportunity to get out or make a change

So good luck...

I can speak better now...

I invite strangers for coffee to network

I do all these things that I never imagined

I feel like I'm on a peak... when the world is literally on fire (covid-19).

What a time... I'm so grateful and I'm ready to enjoy life. Let's go!

Happy 2021!

I am just here to say that 

Although I had moved on for a really really long time

it's still funny to look back 

"What/How is he doing now?"

"Is he failing in life now? like finally?"

"Or is everything fine? Going smoothly?"

if smoothly means unambitious of course.

These are not even the kindest words, but they aren't even personal

Many a time, I struggle to think too highly of anyone anyway

(Many have failed me for lacking the drive)

I just wanted to say

I know that I have peaked

when I've moved on (for many many years)

but then realised that I am being precluded from being a bystander for a said person this whole time,

when I am not the one who wronged in the first place!

Hate to say this, but it does felt like

Someone is fearful of facing one's mistakes, regrets, or bad decisions

(Not that it matters to anyone NOW)

In all honesty

I for one am glad that all this happened

No regrets here because I fought and I tried my best

It didn't work out – you didn't work out –

So there's no need to hide 

And I meant the best for you

(but again, I would do the same if I were you pfffttt so I call that equal)

I say let go ALL THE TIME

But don't we just love teasing when we're not the guilty one 😂