End of 2014

I guess there will be a time in your life in which you got really upset and kind of annoyed. The emotions had built up for a long time and eventually it exploded. The impact was enormous, immense, and everything was in turmoil and you know it won't stop at that moment. Every single thing that you had been holding and taking, would be jettisoned so that your yacht could continue sailing across the unknown seas.

This epitomizes my 2014. A year of having sleepless nights spent to dwell on what's going awry, and, to be grateful for what's going right. 

The situation was ossifying. The communications were sparse. No one was willing to be as candid as they were to others. Too much of hidden truth. Someone's being capricious, dispassionate, unduly dogged (which was so irritating that I can't bear so much) as predicted and thus a choice-less education had to be given. It's a one way ticket to send us apart. ya know. *smirk* probably I'm just semi-kidding, who knows?






Let me clear your doubt. If a second chance were to be given, I would still do the same.
Guess I don't mind much to educate people. 
Life lessons, appreciate it! 





Don't judge!

I've been putting things down. Afraid-ness, emptiness, dogma. Just to mitigate the vacillation I've been experiencing all this time in my life. But effacing all of my erroneous decisions seemed impossible.

What I could think of is to escape - run from every thing that made me so dependent to something in my life. There's a moment that I felt so excited to go out of this town. It's a generic old town after all, nothing really to be missed except my home, bed, friends and otak-otak.

Hence I started to navigate my destination, perhaps forage a final goal.
I wanted to create my own brand based on novel, eco-friendly concepts. I hope this would give more drive and impetus to me from being too lazy. I'm just too relaxed, I know, I know.


Let's not further discuss the distant past or future.

Byeeee 2014.



My friends and I went to the Avillion, Port Dickson. The beach was disappointing. The place was still amazing though. I have longed for a trip with friends to Avillion years ago, but the trip was not successful as it's quite expensive for few of us. So this time, we went there during a promotion period, AND with 10 of us, each of us just had to pay RM60+ for the hotel. 

My teeth ain't that bad right?

Imma faking

The lady beside me was Ying Ying. We're having the same constellation! Oh well That's not even important.

>>>>>That was the Empress Dowager. He says "You shall not go to the ball!"

You might be realising my mouth was almost opening.
Again, don't judge! Hahaha.
I just find the expression looks better in a photo.
There's nothing to do with me being bitchy.



The place was relaxing and chilling. But my friends were screaming at the night. As you can anticipate, 2 rooms to accommodate 5 people will cause sleepless night......


I'm not willing to post photos of me sleeping because they are unexpectedly horrendous.



See ya!

Thank You So Much Anonymous

I am back from a very minor accident. It happened when our car turned right and an car suddenly stopped at the middle of the road. Guess what? We crashed the backside of that car. My instinct told me that was done on purpose! What I worried was, we could be blocked by that car, and our back could be blocked by another car... and the story went on......
(Thousands of possibilities surged through my mind)

But no!

It didn't happen that way. (There's no car blocking us at our back as I glanced back to check) The driver, in fact a Malay, went down and my friend went down to 'discuss'. He demanded for RM100 for the damage of his ill, 'well-crashed' car. Well I see very subtle damage, almost nothing, so intact as the car was having a rubber bumper (is it called bumper?). Everything seemed so suspicious, but we were rendered hopeless because we were guilt-stricken in a sense of law. Besides, we don't argue well in BM.

Here comes the climax.

Then a myvi (JNB 3195) stopped by. A tall, hot man came down. (I swear the adjectives are NOT the climax) And ask us something, but I couldn't hear clearly. He instead talked to the guy. After some talking, things were still not solved, he asked us to shift our car to the road side. But our car engine were not 'startable' at that moment. I was so worried as our car stopped in the middle of the road without any lights. I was so dumb that my first idea was putting the light triangle thingy in front of it to let other cars notice. The man immediately asked us to press the double signal button. I was like 'oh damnnnn he's smart'.

After he talked to the Malay, the Malay was like feeling satisfied. I guess he gave money to the guy. Because I think I see him doing that! I apologized to the guy too as the man did, and the guy went away. He explained to us that bumping into backside of others' cars was wrong, and we were hard to argue more.
 
And shit! As we were so curious about how he make the guy go, we asked and he admitted he offered some coffee-money. He did give money to the guy, perhaps not the full amount, but we guessed it's half of the amount the guy demanded. We were so grateful and we wanted to give him back his money. However, he was very reluctant to take the money, saying that he had to go at the moment. I insisted the accident was not really his business or his problem, and he doesn't deserved to lose money due to helping others! But he with his helpfulness and friendliness, instead went into his car and asked us to be more careful next time.

What to do? We could only bid him goodbye.
(Was thinking to give him a thank-you treat)

We were so grateful to this kind man. Anyone who sees the car JNB 3195 please thank him on our behalf! I'll pray for his success in any thing. I guess this is all I can do to thank him.

I think people like this really make Muar a better place.

A Trip to Marina Bay Sands

Few months ago my mom messaged me asking when my holiday is as my brother was planning to go to Singapore Marina Bay Sands Hotel. I had heard about Marina Bay in which Singaporeans celebrate their national day there. There's a floating stage I guess. But I have no idea that we were going to stay in this wonderful building until the day before we went there.

16/12/14

So we actually had problem when we reached the hotel. We couldn't find a proper parking place nearby the hotel. And then only we realized that the hotel provides valet parking service (where the staff would park for you) for hotel guests. If we didn't opt for valet parking service, we'll have to work quite far along the Marina Sands Shoppes. Normally valet parking is QUITE optional, and so we don't consider it because of its expensiveness (we're cheap). The valet parking service staff even opened our car door and asked us to be careful while crossing the road. So much politeness huh.

The building inside was already so WOWing. The architectural design was definitely unique and different from others that I had seen before, considering other luxury hotels like JW Mariott, Grand Millenium in Malaysia, or even hotel in Taiwan such as Ambience Hotel. I like them tho.


Guess what? Fortunately, my brother had purchased 2 club rooms, so we didn't have to queue up (that's a long queueing line LOL). This is the view from the super big window of the rooms. One faces the Garden by the Bay, the other faces the Marina Bay.

Being the Club rooms guests, we were entitled to enjoy the exclusive High Tea Buffet at The Club located at the 57th floor. Besides The Club, there is an infinity edge pool, which is one of the biggest attraction of this hotel.

We were having high tea here. So we were literally having HIGH tea.

The best thing about the buffet was that you can actually order anything you want to drink. There's a quite long list of beverages, ranging from different types of mineral water to champagne, wine and juices.

Then we actually went to the Garden by the Bay, which was quite a pleasant place to go. So what exactly was the Garden by the Bay? I'm so lazy to describe what I've seen. Moreover, they just baffles descriptions. And so, blahblahblah...

I'm gonna introduce this real quick - it's a Man-made Natural-styled Botanical Garden. Well it sounds so much complicated under my summary. I don't mind LOL.

Not to affect its reputation, I'm going to photo-blog much to give you guys an idea.

Even an 'indoor' waterfall is made.

Looks amazing isn't it? In fact its one of the best places to chill, just like what Tanjung can do to us, just that this place is a thousand times cleaner and better. So sorry to say. 

There's a 'skywalk' hung between the supertrees. It is supported by lotsss of wires/strings. And it moves when the wind blows! I had realized that I'm so scared of being at a high position, especially when I'm stepping on a non-concrete floor.

After the garden, we went back to our hotel room. It's just toooo big.

The curtain can be controlled by switches. The A/C is automatically switched if the door is opened.I love this ecofriendly settings.

I wanted a fridge like this.Wines, soft drinks, chocolates, biscuits....what more you want?

TWG Tea Bags, coffee beans and coffee machine....?

 I didn't have chance to snap a photo of the bathroom. But everything is just too luxurious.

17/12/2014

Early in the morning, we went up to level 57 again to have our sumptuous breakfast.

When I was taking the photos above, a lady, possibly from Europe, laughed at me. I saw her thumbs up and I can only tell her 'blogger, blogger!' without further explanation LOL. Don't laugh!!

The breakfast buffet was indeed lavish, and of course satisfying.

After breakfast, mum insisted to jump into the pool up there.
So we got our things settled and went up again to level 57.

I love to have rest in a city.That's why I'm here to chill.

Don't peep!

In fact, the water in the morning was way tooooooo cold. I prefer to lie down at the chair or whatever there, reading books or doing nothing. I don't want to do things.



In the afternoon, I would like to spend time visit the shoppes near the hotel. There's an Louis Vuitton Island where I wanted to have some photo shoot there. Gucci, Prada, Rolex...... all the things I couldn't afford. But there is ZARA there. I love ZARA so much.

So we went to Sentosa, because we actually bought tickets for the Madame Tussaud and a underworld something.

I saw this in the internet, claiming that they are coming to Sunway next year.So I decided to have a taste of it before others :P It costs $6 I was like 'what shit is this'

Another overpriced fancy food. Arghhh.

Let's jump to Madame Tussauddd.

I like this photo so much. so #gay.好男人要快搶哈哈哈

Angeline Jolie and Brad Pitt.

I'm not sure who is this lady

Feeling Sexay with Beyonce.

She's in town!!!

Oprahh.

I'm half of his height LOLLL

The Marina Bay Sands Hotel was incredibly extravagant, and unlike my mother and brother I just love it. I love to relax in the middle of hustle bustle of a city.

Holidays are ending soon. I'm so worried.
I'm gonna have a good rest now. Till next time!

Changes

Plans to make several changes have been set up. I think it's time to revise the way I used to treat this world. 

I've been, actually, confining myself from the world all this time. But that in turn made me an introvert, who communicated to the world with a non-varied tone, in a way that the world would like to hear or see. And that's not who I really am or, at least, who I wanted to be. After all these time, I no longer know who I am. 

Losing self identity is the toughest part. I'm so well adapted in treating people with the same old fool-acting ways, that always simply throw out stupid jokes. I wondered, 'Is that even me?' Because I have been staying in concealment and lying too long that I couldn't remember how I'm an heart-opened person.

I knew that I have to change, from my appearance to my mind. I wanted to shine so much. That's the real thing.


But how do I face all of you with a brand new me? 

When things change, or try to change, people are unhappy and they critize. Because Chinese tends to be dissatisfied with changes, having an opinion that the old one, whom he had gotten used to, is always better. The statement applies to my father, to our city folk, normally old.

The moment when you saw your housemate throwing out ALL of his books.
and yet your exams have not started..... :l 


Life has been very good here, to be appropriate, busy.
And time flies, 
this is the 5th month I've been staying in Sunway
Wait... What??
(Meaning I left 7 months to sit for AS and 12 months to end A level :P)

It feels like everything has just started, and gone to the right track.
Knowing what to do, there would be no pain.

My heart is truly free and easy now
still feeling disorientated though.

But it's amazing.

I do not know who should I talk to
The situation is pretty bad
And I do not know what to do

Love can't ignite the flames that had been extinguished for years.
Not even their almost cold-shouldered children.
But the children are doing well themselves.

There will be no reply
and I knew it.

Alas
With addition of few surprising zero digits on the bank book
am brought to places where all the problems unraveled
at this single moment.

存活到现在

有人们这么对我说
你可不可以不要有一天缺席
因为看见你就好象会很开心

听起来很像告白
不是啦
是好几个朋友聚在一起的时候突然说的

其实我不是那种圣人
只是来到这里突然很轻松
不再绷着神经
也不会觉得身体沉沉的

想的东西少了
不会一直去深思执着批评
不会有对立的声音在心中彼此呐喊辩论
语言能力也这样继续下降

也好像像朋友说的那样开朗
我自己却没有察觉


只要这样一直努力下去
感觉就很美好
读书变成一个过程
A-level没有那么痛苦
就这样下去吧

一直以來不懂這個世界想要什麼
因為它想要的 從來不是我擁有的

I just want to express my very gratitude to my lecturer and friends, who had enjoyed and lent me their ears during my presentation.

I was in fact shaking and nervous throughout my whole presentation!
But all of your applause had given me the strength.
I know I was so weak in speaking English. So sorry for that.
And I know I'm keep saying the wrong words... Arrgghhhh. Forgive me.

It's good, exciting and amazing to see you guys being so attracted to the knowledges.
It's actually, in fact, out of the chapter of nuclear physics, but I thought that it was important because all of these were actually clearing the doubts of chemistry that all of us encountered in previous chapters.


I was actually studying the quantum physics and particles physics for this presentation.
A few weeks had been spent, just to comprehend the basic concept of the energy levels, quantization, Heisenberg Uncertainty etc.  and to complete my so-called 'lecture notes' (in fact, its a 5-paged presentation points).

The day before the presentation, I was so nervous. I actually had tried to present on my own, but it's hard to pretend there are 'audiences'. And I thought this presentation would also turn out a failure or even a fiasco for my life just like my Form 3 Speaking Test.

I kept imagining the words, phrases even sentences that I'm going to split it out from my mouth such as 'You don't bluff me ar', 'Use a shorter wavelength lar'.............

I'm imitating Ms Soo and Ms Low, their ways of teaching could really catch people's attention.
Well, Mr Chan's method was too hard, because he's too calm and I'm feeling so perturbed, how can I use his method LOL?
My ambition could be an actor, as I'm now learning to be a student, in the mean time learning to be an educator. Wakakaka~

Anyway, I'm feeling glad and happy if you guys are sincere for the applause :P
Hope you guys enjoy the presentation.
I don't think I will be teaching for this A2-related syllabus.
Let the PROs do it please. 
 
Thousands of thanks.

所谓的后悔
是因为知道自己的选择错了
产生的懊悔

后悔不过是自己在暗示自己
错了
下次不该这样

我每一次成长以后都会觉得后悔
每一个阶段都有让自己后悔的事
那感觉
有时候是郁闷
有时候是愧疚
有时候是丢脸

在抉择要不要去观摩团的时候
爸爸说不去会后悔
我当时的想法相信也有在这里提及
我那时候觉得 不参加也就不会知道它有多好，我自然也不会因没有去而后悔了

刚回来的时候确实感觉到它很好很棒，没去还真的会后悔
但现在看回来 却又是觉得很后悔去参与
后悔去认识了很多人，然后回来了淡了，
把那些认识的陌生人安置在暧昧不堪的位置
我到底该装熟呢？还是装不熟呢？

大概一切都是时间在主宰吧


因为想要触碰世界
所以必须要选择要去哪里
我要去哪里呢？
是去新加坡、台湾、日本、韩国、中国
还是澳洲、英国、美国、加拿大

为了不想要后悔
知道今生一定要有成就
为了不想要后悔
就一定要做出对未来最好的决定

但我又怎么才能兼顾一切呢？

想要去英国美国，但离家太远了
妈妈怎么会放心呢，所以一直说去澳洲就好啦

我剩下不到一年的时间去考虑
没想到时间那么快
其实也只过了两个月
但一切都开始了

Lucy: 很有启发性的电影

Lucy是一部我自我要求去看两次的电影

看了预告片的人会认为是一部科幻片
我起初对这一部电影的概念是
这是一部讲述一位脑力被持续开发的女人
对它的期待当然是期待看到普通人的疑问“脑力被开发到某个程度会发生什么事？”
我当然也（因为预告片）盖棺定论，此女人最后应该会失控，所以结局应该是死亡。
我把这个脑力被开发的主角当成情节焦点
我那时候认为这部电影主要只是想要描述一般人没有想过的东西——脑力开发

平均地说，我们马来西亚人对于科学数学的知识都低于中学程度，
一般人觉得太遥远
有人觉得不实际
更多是没兴趣去找出生命的源头，了解自然如何运行

但是不知道生命的源头、不懂自然运行的规则
就没有办法知道生命的意义
为什么生命只有有限的时间？

Lucy有间接在探讨 生命选择什么
(以下揭露部分情节)

多角度思考

在這件事裡
我看到的是
一個母親的失敗

我知道論說別人母親的不是
並不是一件好事
但這只是很單方面的看法

從多元角度去看
這位母親和別人一樣
忍者痛苦生下孩子
很偉大
我尊敬她

然而 這並不影響我對她的觀點
甚至是批評
我覺得 寵溺一個孩子 不算一個大問題
但是寵溺一個不會滿足的孩子
是非常大問題

她作為長輩
我尊重她
她作為生母
我尊重她
但她作為教育孩子的母親
我必須批評她

是，她是生母、長輩
但不代表她做錯的時候
我不能糾正她
甚至總結她 失敗

我尊重她，但我仍舊稱述事實，就好像牛吃草那樣真實

我記得以前我和媽媽在車上討論買鞋子的事
“媽媽，我要買鞋子了。這個鞋子都穿了很久了、要壞了（除了要壞了，而且因為一些原因也不合腳）。XX上次看到我穿這雙鞋子的時候，都說‘還在穿這雙鞋啊’”
“他這樣愛講別人啊，叫他買給你咯”
“他又沒有錯啦，他只是在陳述事實，就好像跟我說牛吃草那樣，只是個事實”
後來整車都笑了
我記得司機還叫我去讀法律 哈哈

有時候別人只是陳述事實，在人的耳裡卻會變成惡意批評


如果思維不透徹就會覺得我是在辱罵別人的母親
我道出事實、總結出 這位母親的缺點， 這行為聽起來沒問題
如果我和別人這麼說， 大概世俗的他們又會覺得
“啊，你在辱罵這位母親”“你怎麼可以這樣”

不要把你對他人在其他事情上的偏見、主見（尊重、喜歡、輕鬆、友善dll）
套用在事實上
別讓這些偏見去影響客觀的事實。

對我來說，這叫做 多角度思考。

因為我們都無法掌控
它的取向
它是無形的
有人叫它命運
有人叫它緣分
有人聲稱它是主送來的最好的禮物
有人說它是冥冥中送給彼此的禮物
有人說那是阻擋不了的宿命
線與線不會永遠相交
相交以後便是分離

我們學會很淡然
只因為無法掌控它
沒有了那種執著
也就不重要了
但願你和他找回想要的一切
又或者彼此創造新的一切
阿門



這段故事也就結束了。
但願多年以後你們能坐下來細細品嚐回憶
品嚐它的恩賜
它教會了大家什麼
你們會談笑風生
活得很快樂、也很滿足



我會努力提升自己（笑
不然被天菜約去見面（暗爽ing
我也還真的不敢赴約
一直說著在忙在忙搪塞過去
這樣 是不對的吧
不能總讓別人等吧

有點開竅了的感覺

其實也明白出現很多次這種感受了
是不是該緊緊持著這個無望的感覺走下去呢 哈哈

很怕這感覺又消失
我又落入俗套
這樣不停轉圈
那是不對的吧

怎麼可能 一個人要管好多人 對吧
不可能像你想要的那麼面面俱到 對吧


既然你不願意再說什麼
哈哈 那就這樣好嗎
就這樣結束了囖

雖然感覺這些時間好想有點空過
但至少能夠明顯感覺得到自己有個方向
該怎麼做、想怎麼做
那時候心裡總是有個底


你說的都成真啦，還蠻恭喜的
是解脫的感覺嗎？
哈哈
好啦 我承認和別人比起來我是很糟

你不會怨恨我吧？
就算怨恨也沒關係
我該成長了呢

雖然還想問 為什麼我是黃色
哈哈不好意思 就看到一些東西
裡面有幾個名字
這種豁然開朗的顏色跟我好像扯不上太多關係
我只是偶爾Kick來了 可以說很多廢話讓大家笑一笑


其實我真的很累
累得不想認真生活下去
突然間也好像掌握不了舵...

就這樣好了
都別談了。



很想念這首歌
是我中二一直在聽的
很棒:D

叩叩叩，你在嗎？

以前有很多時候
容易覺得氣餒、失落
因為在乎嘛哈哈。
那時候就會去看看康熙來了
至少覺得在會心一笑中
失落感就會退潮
人也會很輕鬆，說話會很激昂

到後來因為電腦網絡連接的問題
沒辦法好好地在線看
於是慢慢失去這個管道
所以好一陣子 也有意識到自己
怎麼突然好安靜
懶惰、或者說不願意說太多
好像變了
其實不是吧
只是失落累積不斷 情緒開始來亂
就怕自己說錯話 也就不說了

其實也有嘗試上論壇去看看別人的故事
雖然看完後也有失落感
但對生命真的會期待
也會去參與各種社交交友媒體

很意外的 世界不是像你想的那樣
約炮的比交友的多
沒幾個都是 We can have some fun
聽說一夜情的都是看臉的
那我還蠻感謝你們認同我的臉（笑
但我還沒過18
過了18的朋友
你們的生命也沉浸在這裡嗎？

於是失落地
在機緣巧合下又回到了康熙來了
真的好像感到釋懷了
也不知道是不是假裝釋懷了

但是不是一直假裝釋懷
久了  也會變得真的釋懷呢？



叩叩叩，你在嗎？

後來我們開始、慢慢地失去聯絡

怎麼這好像是最萬能的結尾
不停地出現在我的故事裡

嚴重到甚至曾經在想
要是我不是今天的我、不是今天的樣子
我是不是會活得比現在更好

就像幾個處處幫助我的朋友說的
「如果你是xxxx，我就zzzz」
我剛開始很不屑地說，
「如果我是xxxx，我應該就不認識你了，你也沒辦法zzzz了吧」
到現在我才在猶豫他們說的可能是對的
但不論是對不對的，我也已經是這樣，沒法改變了

想到這裡我又開始斥責自己
不對不對
生命讓我是什麼就是什麼
緣分讓我是什麼就是什麼
我應該去接受對吧
不管他是心靈上的折磨還是肉體上的痛苦

我沒辦法改變自己或否定事實
但我只可以讓自己更好
但也只能是比較好，沒辦法最好了

我很難過
真的很難過
我真的該把所有都忘了

到最后我终究还是离开这里了
废话
计划太多
想要的太多

还好，暂时搁下并不代表放弃
所以也就有了努力和冲劲
幸运的是能够看到自己的成长、不同
也就更有动力了吧

希望这一年半我心中会有一个答案




家里人常常讨论
一个朋友爱买奢侈品的生活方式
有人觉得不需要这么奢侈
有人得到了所有而感叹 一切不过都是空
是空还好 占有一样东西还增添了烦恼
要照顾这样东西、要占据空间、要保护等

我想了想不过也只是角度不一样
我们不去过奢侈的生活，不恰恰是因为我们想要的太多吗？
因为想要的太多，看见了一个就斟酌是否应该买这一个、还是下一个
想要的太多，怕把钱换成这一个，下一个就没办法得到了
把钱留在身边，就好像要拥有什么都可以，只是‘还没去买’罢了
不是吗？

他们充满奢侈品的日子，也不过是因为他们只正视眼前的这一个
不去担心‘下一个会不会更好’而纠结
因为想要的不多，买个皮包之前不会去想‘我还想要买xx’
于是也就不会纠结‘不如把钱省下来买xx’
结果xx来到面前又觉得还是把钱省下来好了
到头来只拥有很多很多钞票
这也只意味着‘你可以拥有很多东西、但你不拥有’

这当然是另外一面的看法
我常常和别人解释这类矛盾的观点的时候
都觉得好难解释啊
突然觉得那些讲道理可以让人家有启发的人好厉害
要怎么让别人在一幅图里看见另外并存的三、四幅图
哪有这么容易啊

虽然买了的电脑低于原本预算的三千多
但是还是心生愧疚感

刚好去到书店
走走翻翻本来以为不会买什么书的
后来突然看到皮肤的书
就去买了
虽然不到30块
突然觉得自己很浪费钱
就算它怎么有价值
愧疚感继续蔓延

回到家检查邮箱
发现上次报名的Sunway宿舍已经确认报名了
每个季度的费用都清清楚楚的写在上面
突然怀疑自己
是不是太浪费了呢
其实以前就想通了的
把剩下来的补给给宿舍费
拿到通知书了就又掉入那个圈圈
又是愧疚感啊

想到这里
我又想未来至少也要是成功的
我爸说我是那个花比较多钱的
怕我爱虚荣
更怕我有压力
这么说来我才发现压力了
好像真的必须是成功的

想到要成功
很多人都会去想实际的
赚大钱、出本伟大的书、发明东西、创造品牌
因为虽然竞争大却又无限可能

我的矛盾使我有两种实际与不实际的想法
至少矛盾让它们变得都很有可能

我知道我很矛盾
曾经觉得考试考试考试，那是很无聊的
必须要有一些作业专案
后来发现其实读读书，抱着书，也不会很无聊
甚至有一个天地等着你探索

但如果想着表演专业
就是极少的考试和许多的表演作业、公演
想到就觉得又害怕又兴奋

看到别人的一年级的音乐剧作品
就觉得好兴奋
记得以前看了《High School Musical》、《The Sound of Music》等等的音乐剧
就一直很向往
甚至有幻想过、和朋友讨论过要在学校办音乐剧
但后来需要准备的太多、再加上太多各种阻碍，
便不了了之

现在却又因为必须把所有自己交给舞台交给镜头
感到害怕
甚至因为太多未知数而感到惶恐

没有电脑那么多天
终于下定决心去买了

原本预计想要买三千多块
但还是算了
等我自己赚钱吧= =
把身下的钱拿去交学费去

毕竟只是i5
还新新的居然给我non responding
真的是汗颜

话说
中文字体的显示怪怪的
也不知道要去哪里弄TT